Freedom of Choice

Who I am? What should I do?

Questions I have been asking myself for a while now. My existence in this world triggers me to find out who I am. With this, all my actions and the things I do are  based on the person I want to become – a good daughter, a friend, a teacher…then one day I said – I am a student of life. I learn and gain knowledge on the choices that I make, on the things I believe that are true.

My choice to be in an Open University gave me the freedom to pursue my goal to finish a degree while working. It gives me freedom to decide on my own in terms of time to study, method of learning, etc. It is my choice to be a educator someday, this stemmed from y belief that If I can be  a part of this system, then I can be a part of revolutionizing it. This, is what I chose to be become, this is what I reckoned my purpose is.

My parents gave me the right to exercise my freedom of choice. They rarely come up with a decision for me. They give me facts and details and let me decide. They guide me, yes! but have never insisted on doing something they had planned. They make me learn from my mistakes.  I have the liberty to chose something but also have the responsibility of owning its consequences.

Existentialism in today’s education still let learners to discover themselves, to find out who they are and exists as self-realization and self-definition through subjects like History where learners reflect on the people’s reason of doing something. A person’s purpose is defined through his actions. Relating peoples’ act of heroism or artists’ choice of inclination in Music, Arts will also lead them to asking; What can I do? What about me, what is my purpose?


A Sense of Reality

Reality bites. Be real. Sounds familiar? How many of us have uttered these words?

“Life is not a problem to be solved, but a reality to be experienced.”  as Soren Kierkegaard once said.
Lao Tzu also had his piece about it, “Life is a series of natural and spontaneous changes. Don’t resist them; that only creates sorrow. Let reality be reality. Let things flow naturally forward in whatever way they like.”

How many important people said something about reality? How about you? Have you taken part of thinking what is real? Me, I know I’m real.

70% Realist, 30% Idealist – my views have always been divided at this percentage. When I’m stuck in a situation, I based my decision on  the state of things of how they are at the moment, how I see them and look past  through it to reflect on its effects afterwards. I developed my own reasons and beliefs which I embody in my character and personality, I have the ability to think rationally and use this to my advantage to live with purpose. These are stored at my subconscious and are used whenever needed. Being a realist – is being a student of life. I gradually and continuously gain knowledge and truth when I encounter one, when I experience it – it becomes vivid and true. It is like as doing experiments when we were younger – we are in our science laboratories, peeping through the tiny microscope, seeing the specimen, collecting ideas and facts.

As we experience, see, hear, feel and smell at different heights and perception, we are able to create our own reasoning and understanding of the world.

It also comes in different views – Realism and Theistic Realism where the first focuses on acquiring knowledge through matter, that it has form – using senses like seeing, hearing, feeling & smelling while the latter centers on going beyond the matter’s limit and rising beyond its absolute purpose inclined with God.

These two are present in the institution where I’ve been. My teacher would ask us to bring samples of plants we have at home then would classify them accordingly as shrubs, herbs, vines or trees. It is learning with what is real – with something we can see in the community. With Theistic Realism, human existence and evolution uses Bible and we have our summer Bible Studies where we learn the whole reasons of birds, trees and human existence in the eyes of God.